Happy Birthday to Raja Ahmad Taufiq

Hi Everyone. Say "Happy Birthday" to Raja Ahmad Taufiq! Mihmih. So I've planned to suprise him for his birthday. And Alhamdulillah. Everything went well. Thanks to Eyka, Lily, Fara sebab teman pergi beli kek. Thanks to Fara cause she bought the "Party poppers" thingy. Thanks to Arif, Fatin, Bell, Syira, Ijan, Ikhmal, Kecik, Asya and others for coming. Never thought ramai yang datang. Haha. Ceh Aku pulak yang thanks to them. Mcm birthday aku je :p Haha. So this is the birthday cake that I've bought for him.

Tadaaaaaaa! Happy Birthday King Taufiq <3

 I bought this cake and brought this to him. Sang the Happy Birthday song w/ al his friends. Oh That was awesome! And thanks for the hug birthday boy :3 I feel so appreciated when you hug me that tight. Well, ehm Wishing you Happy Birthday isnt enough for me to show my love towards you. But still  I wish you're blessed with all the Happiness, health, joy and prosperity in your life. I hope u're still wishing that I'm gonna be the first person who's gonna wish you happy Birthday. Happy Birthday form the twinkle of my eye and the person who I love from the bottom of my heart. <3

Nah! Picture of me and him.

Look at my eyes. They're watery. I feel like crying cause he just hug me. And look at his face. Lol. Haha. nervous tu!!!! Masa potong kek. His hand was shaking so bad you know! He was so overwhelmed and guess what?! He never expect siap ada kek semua. Haha. Rasa bangga dekat diri sendiri. Cause I've made something for him. :') I love you. I love you so much. And I dont care what'd happened to us. 

And things went well....Alhamdulillah

And here the lst picture.Haha. bersepah kan? with the candles and the party poppers thingy. Haha. I thank to them all sebab tolong aku pergi cari kek and plan kena kan taufiq semua. Thank you very much. and onc again! Happy Birthday Raja Ahmad Taufiq. :) Sincerely, Your ex-Girlfriend.

1. Kadang-kadang, dalam hidup kita kena buat pilihan. Tapi kadang-kadang, kita buat pilihan yang salah.Kadang-kadang, kita sayang orang tu. Kadang-kadang kita benci. kadang-kadang kita kena belajar to let them go.Kadang-kadang kita kena belajar untuk menghargainya. Kadang-kadang kita kena bersedia untuk sesuatu yang kita takpernah jangkakan akan berlaku. Tapi kadang-kadang ni takdapat nak berikan kita apa yang kita nak. Bila hati dah sakit, apa penawarnya? Bila hati dah robek, masih ada ke penawarnya? Hati aku sakit. Mungkin boleh sembuh. Tapi bila dah robek.Bila dah tersangat sakit apa lagi ubatnya? Setiap kali aku mula nak gembira balik. Mesti ada benda yang buat aku lemah. Mesti ada perkara yang buat aku menangis. Apa salah aku dekat kau? Apa dosa aku dekat kau? Apa kurang aku dengan dia? Apa lebih dia dengan aku? Apa? Aku benci sayang orang. Setiap kali aku mula sayangkan orang. Setiap kali aku nak bangun. Mesti dan Pasti aku ditinggalkan dengan orang yang aku sayang. Penat hidup ni kadang-kadang. Aku harap aku kuat. Kuat menghadapi semua ni. AMIN.

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Happy 11th month :')

Imma Single Lady

Today is the 11th day for me of being single. Well, it's not that cool actually. but whatever it is. I moved on. I forget all the shit that'd happened on my relationship for this 9 months, all the good and the bad days w him and the day i fell in love w him. It's a lie if i could forget all this things just like that. But as i said, I MOVED ON. Why do i have to be sad all the time. While him? Lolz. I'm tired of being sad. I used to it! Sometimes, rindu juga dekat dia. But then i was asking myself "Do he miss me like I do?" I guarantee, he don't miss me and he WON'T! So I've decided to live my god damn life w/o thinking bout him anymore and forget all the shit that'd happend between us. I know I am not "that" strong, but I believe that Allah is writing my love story. If me and Taufiq are meant to be together. InsyaAllah one day we'll get married and we'll have kids together. But if we're not meant to be, then I'll just pray to Him. and I'll pray for Taufiq's happiness. Amin.

If only I can wish we never knew.

Ya,I tahu tahun ni big year untuk you kan? Tp, kenapa kita kena mcam ni sayang? Ya, I faham. I tk boleh nak kongkong. Tp perasaan tak? You care less bout me. Why? What did I do smpai u cmttu? Sbb U nak spm ke? Takkan nak spm smpai nak smik berat pun u kena ikut masa? I penat sayang. Sumpah I penat. Hati I ni dah tk larat dah. Makin lama makin berubah. I off my phone. And bila I on. NO MISCALL FROM YOU. KENAPA?! KENAPA YOU TAK CARI I?! KENAPAAAAAA?!!!! Kalau kita memang dah takdapat nak teruskan hubungan ni. I redha sayang. I redha. I percaya dgn qada' dan qadar I. I cuma mintak u, cari I like u used to. Care bout me, like you always do. And love me like no one else can. I'm hurt. Like seriously I do.

No one understand me

I rasa apa yg i ckp semua takde kesan pun untuk you. kite akan tetap jadi mcmni dan takkan berubah. dah i akan terus simpan perasaan ni. i hope i'm a person without feelings. i dah penat nak saki hati. never once u faham, and i'm the one yg akan salah. cemburu salah, halang salah, ego salah. padahal u takfaham. nvm, i nekad kali ni. i akan abaikan perasaan i. i nekad. i tknak amek tahu dah lagi apa yg i rasa apa yg i sakit hati. i akan faham u 100% u nak kluAr, u nak ada kawan permpuan. u taknak text dgn i, u lebih pentingkan kawan u. g with it. i dah tak kesah. i takkan buat apa2 lg. i akan faham u, 8 nekad kali ni. k

I'm not strong anymore :/

Hi baby boy. Yeah, you! My boyfriend :) How are you, sayang? I hope you're doing fine all this days alright? I miss you. Ye, I rindukan you sayang. It just that, I want to remind you the day we get to know each other. The day, you're telling me that you do like me. And the day, you ask me to be your girlfriend. Do you still remember this? :/  I know, I write this like more than 2 posts.But it can't go away from my mind. 


Sayang, do you still love me like you used to? or dont you? Do you still need me, like you always tell me, before? Do you? I love you, Raja Ahmad Taufiq like dying! I need you by my side like 24-7. I know you need your own time. But, you just dont understand how i felt. 


Dulu, when we first met. You told me that you like me. I don't like you at first. But at that moment, you told me that you like me. I started to like you too. I don't know why. Maybe, it's because of your attractive eyes and the way you hold my hand. I guess? 


Then after a day we know, you called me. And you told me that you have something to ask me. I was to curios, and I really want to know what is it. But you asked me at the end of our call. You asked me, "will you be mine?" and that time i was wishing that i'm not making a wrong decision. I dont wanna get hurt anymore. But, without thinking too long cause our ss is about to finish. I just answered it "Yes!"


We always go out together. Watching movie, take a walk, talk bout this and that, we do too many things together, kan sayang? But, did you realize? after day by day pass, things' getting worst and we're not do our things anymore.it's like, you dont have any time for me anymore, and i don't have any time for you too. 


Sayang, I'm begging you. Let's start it all over again? I'm not strong anymore for this. I'm not. Please, let me have you. Let me have some of your time. Let me have your love. Let me know your secret that you never tell any other girls. and Let me be yours. Can you? :/


I'm not hoping for you to be the best. Cause I know, if we got jodoh. Allah already makes you the best for me. But sometimes, I swear i get jealous to see my friend with their boyfriend. they're just too sweet. And I really wann feel that. I'm always hoping for your sweet words sayang. You always send me your sweet words before. But, not anymore. Where did they all gone? 


Am I like nothing to you anymore? :/ Sayang, sometimes i feel like giving up and i feel like i want me and you do our own thing. But I can't!  :/ Everytime i feel like letting you go. I'm thinking, how if this is really the end? And i'm thinking, how long i've been searching someone like you and when i already have you, i'm just letting you go like that. I'm gonna regret  if i let you go. Yes I am :/ 


Gosh, I'm starting to cry. i know you're not gonna read this untill here. But i just wanna let you know how much I miss you, How much I'm hoping for something that you didnt do it anymore. and How much i want to be yours. I love you so much Raja Ahmad taufiq. I love you till the end of my life. And I swear to god. If, I am yours I'm not going to waste it. i will make sure I am the one and I'm the only girl that could light up your world when you're down. That could here all you problems anytime anywhere like no one else can. Yeah, I'm not promising you to be the best kan? But, i'll try to be the best and i'll never give up until you're telling me that I am the best for you. 


I'm sorry for all the things i'd done. I mean all the bad things lah. I never meant to hurt you.NEVER. It just, Hm. People make mistakes kan sayang? I'm really sorry. I really mean it. I love you so much. And I'm sorry if I didnt show you that I really do. This is my way. I'm sorry for all the pains, the hurts, the bad time and all the fight we had. i'm really sorry. I love you so much Raja Ahmad Taufiq.


Sincerely,
Your girlfriend.

Eyka Evelyneyot

This post is for my baby eyka...

Nothing much baby. It just, hmmmm I'm gonna miss you so much :/ Take care kat sana. Lapchu lapchu :*

I hope I know him well....

Okay, here's a few things to share bout him:-

1. Masa mula-mula jumpa, he very shy shy one. Tapi bila dah couple dah tak shy shy dah. Gatal jadinye :p

2. Lepas makan kan dia mesti jilat jari dia. Sunnah Nabi katanya.

3. Dia akan cepat tertidur bila tgok TV sambil baring....

4. Muka dia tgh khusyuk buat sesuatu akan nmpak kelakar Haha

5. Dia takboleh kena geletak, nanti semua benda nak pukulnyaaa

6. Raja kuat sangat makan, tapi badan dia takpernah nak gemok2

7. Kelakar sangat kalau dia menari. Tapi sangat comel :p

8. Ayam masak merah Fevereetttt dia!!

9. Dia akan nampak cute bila botak :p

10. I still remember our 2nd date. K dia ckp me jalan mcm itik! -/-

K nak share 10 jeee. Hehe. I love you so much Raja :*

The reasons why I love Raja like dying....

People don't know why i love you so much. No one knows. But I know. Cause I am the who always in your heart. I am Raja's! Bukan aku nak memuji tapi ini memang kenyataan yang aku rasa. So anyone yg taksuka our relationship ni, or taksuka me with him/ he with me. I don't care okay? It's between me and him. I know, 7 months are enough for him to know me well. So guys yg don't know mcam mana kiteorang lalui selama 7 bulan ni, So don't talk much! I hate it when my very very very good friends talk bad about him, cause I know when his friend talk bad about me. He will definitely get angry! Okay dah panjang saya membebel. Lemme tell you guys, why I love him so so so much, like I can't live without him after this. Lols Jiwang pulak kalah cerita titanic :p k puih.


1. Korang percaya tak yg dia ikut jerr cakap aku? He do whatever I told him to do! Like seriously, this is true!


2. He always be the first one yg pujuk aku bila aku bergaduh dengan dengan dia. ALWAYS K! bukan kadang2. A-L-W-A-Y-S!


3. We end our conversation with I love You so much :* Ya know what, he really hate it when I only say I love you. Pantang larang nenek moyang dia tu!


4. He don't talk to girls yang dia tak kenal! Cause I told he Jangan! So, it means jangan! And dia ikut jerrr.


5. He get jealous easily. So do I. Sometimes, we had a big fight sebab ni. But still we both can understand each other.


6. Yes, he really understand me! He tak buat benda yg me tak suka, But aku selalu buat benda yg dia tak suka. Hu...Hu... But he never stop understand me k?! Never...


7. He made pancake for me twice. Oh rindunyerrrr :*


8. Bila aku ajak dia keluar, dia tetap akan keluar, Walaupun dia tengah takde duit. And no phone to call me.


9. We don't talk on the phone. We really don't! We don't text nor BBM! And we only chat on facebook or sometimes we go tweetin'.. This for real okay? No lieee~


10. Dia seorang yg baran tersangat, but for meeee. Dia berjaya tak jadi seorang yg baran.


11. Aku suka buat benda yg annoying dekat dia! Suka kacau dia but still he never get angryyyyyyy. Berani dia nakmarah? :O Memang aku merajuk lari indon tak balik2!


12. He hold me tight when I cry.


13. Its cute when he say that he miss me. Cause dia akan jadi jiwang kejap. Ouch


14. He accept me for my bad and my good.


15. dia takpernah mengeluhsebab sayang aku.


So I guess 15 are enough, Going to sleep now. Assalamualaikum & Goodnight everyone xx

YOU & ME WON'T BE UNHAPPY

Hello, Raja. I love you so much ღ

Hello everyone ;) Happy friday!! Okay, Me dunno how to start. Ah mcmne eh? Uhm, Okay. This is my boyfriend. This few days, kiteorang asyik bergaduh 'bout this and that. Me takboleh nak trima apa dia cakap. And he also. Everytime, Kiteorang gaduh aku rasa mcm give up. Aku rasa mcm aku ni dah banyak sakitkan hati dia. Bukan macam, tapi memang. but bila aku rasa nak lepaskan dia. it feels like i'm letting go one of the most important thing in ma life. And I don't want that. its like "I'm letting you go after 7 months together?" Ah you know, it feels kinda sad to let go something that have been yours more than 3,4 months. I don't want to be the most stupid person in this world. I don't want to feel regret when he's not mine anymore. And I just dont wanna see him more happier with other girls. I just dont want all this things happen. But I know, I'm not his dream girl and I know I'll never be. I can't be perfect like others girlfriend. I also can't give him the best I know. I dont treat him well as mine. But then I know that No one can ever love him like I could. I love him more than I love myself. I love him like there's only me and him that's still alive on this earth. yes I love him so much. No sweet talking but these words are no lie. Once again, i love you so much raja. I wish I could be the halal one for ya one day InsyaAllah Pray for us ☺

Awesome readers

Hello. Miss me? No. Err, okay. Lol Bye :*

Relationship - Chicken Soup for Teenage Soul

"Relationship-of all kinds-are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too positively and the the relationship slips away and is lost."

Lol

Hellooo (Y) See ma blog? lawa kannn? Yippi yippi. Thanks to ma boyfriend and eykaa nyot for helping me.Weee, I love ma blog like dying. Uhukzzz.K me so Happy. Likeee ZzzZzzZzz Kbye ma awesome readers :*

3.30 A.M.

Okay hi Morning evryone as the title above its already 3.30 and i still not sleep yet. Idk why I can't sleep. ya know it's like theres something block in ma eyes so that I cant close it. Huhu. Okay what a sad night for me, What a #Sadlife for me. Hashtag k? Haha.idk I just cant stay strong anymore. Rasamacam rebah jek. Gentle saya pasrah gila awak. But however I still have to hear his explanation first butt, I dont wanna get hurt even more.Ahh There's a prove k? I have been cheated And that is what happening right now. Oh, Pity me everyone.I've been judge here and there, i get scolded for this and that. But then, Seee seee!! Siapa yg buat perangai. Middle finger for me. K, I hate my life bye !

What a Sad Saturday night :'(

Hello evryone. Okay, I'm posting.... Wuuu. Tak percaya? :P Haha, Okay. What a sad night for me today. I'm tired of being cheated. But that's alright, already used to it. Well, I hate guys who play games. But thats normal. People nowadays baby. How i wish this game will end and never happend. Ahh, Even thousand words not enough to talk bout this shitty things. I'm done with this.I'm trying to change I'm trying to be what people want. but then it's really true" its good to be hated for who you are than being loved for what you are not". Okay, I'm sleepy. My eyes. Oh what an ugly eyes I have. It looks like ju-on somehow. haha. Okay Night ma awesome readers. xx

Happy Friday everyone~

Hi... Hello... Hey... Okay, sorry for the boring blog.No updates no story Ah B-O-R-I-N-G Aite? So, miss me? Hewhew. Okay don't answer! Haha, happy friday everyone.Cuti sekolah dah nak dekat. Oh, Imean dah bermula pun And Andddd, Kite kena drop form acc class. Huhu Sad life aite? but nvm, perdagangan pun perdagangan la. No big exam, But then This is ma big yr. Why? Bcoz 2012 got so many new things mayn. I've to learn this and that. Ah, it's a new year aite? And I'm going 16 this august. Ouch, I'm getting old!!!!!!!! Oh going to miss my 15th yr so much. Huhu Okay done! I'm out of wordss.... Going to update againnn okay? bye bye ma beautiful gorgeous handsome readers. Love ya xx.

Me & You

Sayang, I taktahu mcmana nak cakap. Bila ckp nanti ada je benda yg tak kena. Sayang, We talk much about future about this and that. Sampai I kadang2 rasa takut, Takut kalau jodoh kita tak pnjang sayang. Sejauh mana kita bertahan.Sekuat mana kita sayang, kalau jodoh takde, Takde pun lah walau bertahun-tahun.

Sayang, remember our first date?Remember what you've told me?You'll always be wimme whenever I need you. But where are you now sayang? I needyou all the time. Like 24/7 but then, kita makin jauh. Kita gaduh bout little tiny things.

I taktahu nak cakap, I tktahu nak tulis apa. I taktahu nak luahkan apa. tetiba mcm terkaku.........

Hi ;)

''11/06/2011'' Ingat lagi sayang? Kalau tak ingat biar I ingatkan. Ingat masa you nmpak I kat entrance Pavi? mastu I jumpa eyka.. Ingat Masa kat seladang? You mintk number I.. You suruh ash mintak. Tapi ash bagi kat you number salah. Haha.. Lepastu Ingat masa kat rooftop? You duduk depan I. Tapi I langsung tak tgok you masatu. Fyka main speedlite you. lepastu you mintak kat I. Then speedlite you terjatuh. I cakap 'Sorry' And I senyum. masa tu you urut dada jek and you senyum jugak. Lepastu you tanya eyka/fyka kiteorang nak pergi mana. Kiteorang nak tgok movie. and you cakap, Alah takpayah lah apalah. Ingat tak sayang? Lepastu kita pergi Pulau. Makan roti tampal. masa tu You tak tegur I.I pun tak tegur you. Haha. Tpi i ingat you minum apa. You minum air barli. You duduk depan eyka. I tanya nama you siapa. Lepastu masa balik you hantar smpai lrt jelatek. You salam I tapi you tak salam fyka. I pelik. Then you cakap ' I suka you. No, Seriously. I suka you' Sayang, masa tu tuhan jek tahu macamne I rasa. I balik i terus cerita kat fyka blablabla. Then I add you kat fb. You tak approve i mula2. I asyik tanya fyka. Kenapa ni you tak apprve I lagi.

"12/062011" Then masa ni you appve I. Kite chat. lepastu malam kita oncall. Sayang, Ingat tak? You cakap apa masa you nak couple dgn I. you cakap ada benda nak cakap dgn I. I punya lah curious nak tahu. padahal you nak ckp masa kita jumpa kan sayang? Haha. Spoil lah i. But then you cakap jugak. You cakap 'Can you be mine?' Sayang, I mungkin masatu tak kenal you. But tak salah kan kalau kita kenal lepas kita couple. 

I rasa mastu nak sebulan macam setahun sayang. 2 bulan macam 2 tahun. Tapi lepastu I okay. Sbb kita selalu sam2. you sweet sangat, I ingat lagi you cakap that 'Angel don't watch angel' That was so sweet~ Tapi dah lama2 banyak yang berubah. Banyak sangat sayang. 6 bulan kita sama2 dan banyak benda dah kita lalui, and harini you said goodbye to me. I takpaham apa maksud you tapi...

I mintak maaf sebab tak jadi dan takpernah terfikir utk jadi yg terbaik untuk you. I mintak maaf sebab I dah buat you tunduk dekat I tanpa I sedar. I mintak maaf I dah buat you jadi bodoh. I mintak maaf, sbb pentingkan ego i dari hubungan kita ni. I mintak maaf sbb dah bazirkan masa you 6 bulan dan 11 hari hidup dgn I. I mintak maaf sbb tak boleh bagi apa yang you nak. I mintak maaf kalau I buat you rasa mnyesal sbb mintak couple dgn I 6 bulan lalu. I'm sorryy sayang, I'm sorry for everything. I love you so much. I love you for thousands years. Even thousands yrs not enough. I love you forver. 

3 weeks together...

K taktahu nak update apa ni. Cuma nak ckp dah 3 minggu dgn raja tapi sekrg dah tak sama-sama lagi. Dia dah balik rumah dia semalam. Haih :-(

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I feel safe when you pun your arms on me

I trust you so i let you hold me cause I know you'll catch me when I fall

I'll be there for you whenever you need me,
cause I know you'll always there when I need you,